Foolish

Hello all ,
I've been absent on here, for a little while ,wasn't ready to tell you what an IDIOT i've been. Because i was such a FOOL and went back to the gym to early. Everything was going fine after my op, no pain , healing all very quickly, so thought it would be ok to do a leg wotk out. Nothing to heavy. No pain or discomfort. Till the next morning woke up to some major swelling. Thought ok better just rest up , going to get stitches out in a few days.Went to get the stitches out and got told to go home, pack a bag , meet you in surgery tonight. That was Monday 18th. He said i had an absess and hematoma. Woke up  from surgery in pain , had a nappy pin through the wound  holding a drain tube. Looked and felt like i had been hit with an axe. The doctor said it was a bigger op than he thought , he had to cut away dead tissue. Spent two days in hospital, and have been a couch potato ever since. Had the stitches out on Monday just gone and and now on the mend. So yes i feel like such a FOOL. So obsessed that i couldn't put my body on hold for just a week or so longer. So ANGRY with myself . But whats done is done. My body has gone a bit soft on me, but nothing i cant fix .Will give me something to work on. Ventured out for a little walk around the neighbour hood last night with hubby and daughter. Just a walk no power walking yet. Had to get out in the fresh air .Woke up this morning checking to see if there was any swelling , but all is fine. So yes i am a bit paranoid now. Will head back to the gym next week.Wont be doing any legs till maybe the week after.Will start with just body weight squats and lunges i think.My little chubby legs will just have wait .
So there you go , that was my news. Hopefully next week i will be able to report on my progress at the gym. No doubt i would have lost a bit of strength .
Take care all
love Diane