12 days

The count down is on. 12 days to go. Had a little bit of a cheat yesterday . Went to the Apex teenage fashion  awards yesterday at the Hyatt. Still ate clean, just had some extra fruit. I Always come in a bit to lean.So have been having a little extra to eat this time round. Hope i wont be sorry for it on the day. Think if i stick to plan from now i should be ok. Will do some skin folds later today and see where i am at. Weight is sitting at 51kg. On my scales that is. Don't want to be on stage under 49kg. Had a few ups and downs over the week end. Saturday was a real downer , wasn't happy with how my body was looking , was even thinking of just pulling the pin on it all. We all like to come in looking better than we did the last comp. If i come in looking better. Then it doesn't matter if i don't place. It's self satisfaction , knowing that you have improved and feeling good up there. So i have pushed past my saturday downer , like that saying
" NEVER NEVER GIVE UP"

2 weeks and 4 days

Haven't blogged on here much. Have spent to much time trying to figure out how to add The Blogs i read up on my page. This all new to me. Well comp is coming up quick. Considering i started off already pretty lean, i am starting to panic a bit now if i'll be lean enough. Had a cheat night Monday night for my birthday and then my last cheat night Saturday night. Steak burger & chips (i should not of had the chips) and the most delicious ice cream sunday i've ever had. I wake up every morning feeling very skinny now days, but by the the time i have eaten  and had some fluids my LEGS seem to puff out again. I ordered a costume from the states , it arrived last week. The bottoms look a bit tiny, oops . My Daughter said they wouldn't be big enough to fit even one of her butt cheeks in . MMMMM....they fit , just a bit less material than i'm used to.hahaha, I'll see how they are looking next week, if i'm worried i can always get another one made. This one is just a blank one ,aqua crushed velvet. I am going to decorate it myself. If don't end up wearing it , i can always sell it to some lucky girl that is blessed with a tiny backside. Well i think i am off to bed , have to get some sleep and recharge myself for a leg session tomorrow.

Exhausted

This morning i went down to my old Gym and practiced and showed my routine to Nicole and Aron (two of the trainers there). Then i noticed in the big mirrors there ,that my left quad was bigger than my right. Panic , cant have that .I dont like to look in mirrors to much , because then i start obsessing and panic i am not going to make it time .So yes i did panic a little ,so did some one leg workouts there. Then 50 walking lunges with the medicine ball. Came home ate and then slept in the massage chair.Woke up ate and then had my training session at another gym with my trainer , which we punished my legs further. Followed by half hour incline walking on the tread mill. So a big leg day today. My dream is to bring in a nice booty and lean hammys, hehehe i think most girls obsess over that. dont they? . The next four weeks i will be working like a crazy woman to try and achieve this dream. I even purchased some 2 kilo leg weights the other day , to do some toning at home. Well i am off to bed , have another training session in the morning.